Commitment

I went to CompUSA to buy the Dragon Naturally Speaking Preferred software and OmniPage software. Not sure if they will do the job, but the sales prices were irresistable. I have been looking at both software for a couple weeks. Actually, instead of OmniPage, I thought I wanted Paper Port. I do not have any really solid plan to use either software, as is the usual case with me. I am adding both to my project list (the one that is somewhere lost in my mind). I need to do some reflection as to why there seems to be so little impulse control on my part. I buy software and hardware, but do not want to think about the exact plan I have for the purchase...do not want to think or is the truth that I am incapable of formulating a workable plan?

OmniPage software is normally about $180, but got it for $80 today. My plan was to slowly convert my hard copy files to scanned files. On the surface, it looked like PaperPort would do a better job. However, PaperPort was not on sale (normal price is $100). Does this make sense? I stood in line at CompUSA trying to figure which software to buy. Finally, it was my turn at the register, and I told the cashier that I wanted the Dragon Preferred and OmniPage. Beats me why I do what I do!

Dragon Speech software - why did I buy this? Haven't a clue...I am sitting here trying to remember why I thought I wanted this software. I already bought Dragon essentials (about $50 before rebate) which allows for speech input instead of the typing of emails. I have not taken that one out of the box yet! I think my plan was to try this software out. Nothing has come of the plan. Dragon essentials was one of the 100% rebate products that CompUSA sells. Dragon Preferred (normally $150 but was on sale for $80 today) allows me to use speech in many different applications. Unclear to me why I thought I could use this.

Do I think I can be more clear if I am vocal? Does speech force me to become more concrete? Does speaking somehow equal a greater commitment on my part? This feels like a fruitful avenue to follow. It occurs to me that even typing this blog involves more commitment than I have made in the past two years. I have come back here 3 days in a row.

This is not entirely accurate. I did sign up for the 3 month CompUSA training program and completed 65+ computer classes! This took a certain level of commitment. I wish I could say that it was hard and that I overcame great obstacles. However, it was comforting knowing that all I had to do was to show up 6 days a week (many nights too). I learned a lot, but have not anything with the learning.

Maybe one of the things I can do on this blog is to examine all the software that I have yet to install and come up with a plan to either install and use OR sell at half.com. Can I make a commitment to buy no more software unless I have a written plan for its use? Can I commit to install and use it the same day? This sounds impossible (going on my track record). Maybe, I could set up a procedure that I have to tell another person why I am buying the software and what I plan to do with it.

This feels confrontational. What if this person confronts me logical reasons why my plan makes no sense? Gulp. I know I might get mad and defensive. Better to keep this problem to myself or at least not to ask for honest feedback. What if I just ask ... heck... what is it that I want here? I want to finish something! Everything is so up in the air. No one holds me accountable..because no one knows what I am doing (including me). Will this blog holding me accountable? I can make one commitment per day and see what happens the next day. Will I remember?

When I looked over my posts, there were a number of references to wanting to post something to this blog while surfing the Internet. I am pretty sure I did that more than once. Let me go look. WOW, posted 3 times from the Internet! Actually, it was 4 times ( I am counting the partial posting of the Blogrolling info).

Oh-oh...I need a title to this post.

Done.

Within the next 24 hours, I will commit to listing on this blog all uninstalled software and formulate some plan for my use or disposition of the software.