Just got back from lunch at Big City Grill. I am feeling a carbo reaction. I think it is time to change the old diet to NO CARBS! This is the 3rd or 4th time this week that I've had a carb reaction after eating. I shall try to cut down on my carbs for now.

When I walked through the door, I woke Dick. He fell asleep. Is he OK to go to the movie? I left the intercom on so that I can hear if he gets up. Maybe staying home would not be a bad idea. There is a lot I want to do and this office is an absolute mess!

This is all about Clutter...

Have been reading books on clutter. It is clear that there is no real emotional attachment to the clutter. Here is a list of the clutter that I see around me:

notes written while on the net
notes written while using the Book Library and Book Collector
printed material from the net
eyeglasses
iPaq cradle with an iPaq lying loose
Dick's charge card slips
a laptop
a checkbook
loose computer cables (comp to comp type)
pictures
Tums (or the equivalent)
About 30 software boxes lying around my two desks (to be installed)
an open computer tools holder
an unopened MSM bottle
a battery recharger (I think it is broken)
many pens lying around
many floppies (most unlabled so I have no clue what they are for)
a PAID stamp
a LOT of mail (opened and unopened)
a grouping labled Bills To Pay
an extra DELL keyboard
one walkie talkie...hmmm where is the mate?
Couple external hard drives
eyeglass cleaner fluid
holder for paperclips (inside is 91 cents and 7 business cards, but no paperclips)...where are the paper clips?
a post-it from PW dated 8/15
a pair of scissors on the floor...I should pick it up but where would I put it?
a 2003 box calendar with Westie pictures
a multi-function fax machine
an intercom
a confererence phone...just tried to turn on and nothing happens
54 books that I found on the desk behind me...they are stacked so high they block the entire window..good, I like it dark
about 20 of those boxes that checks come in...I use to store registers, deposit slips, unused checks from my 3 checking accounts
an address book...no, just picked it up...it is a Commemorative Quarter Album...the 3 quarters in the paperclip holder are all too old for the folder
My Do Now, Please Read and Please review slots are over 12 inches high with stuff
On the side of me, is a stack of papers about 5 inches high (the papers look like an assortment which grew one paper at a time (nothing looks related)
I see my library listing on the floor...I picked it up and under it found a note where I copied an error notice from the Book Library software
I threw the error notice away since I alreade emailed the software company for help...did not throw away, I recycled since the back side still can be used for more sciblings
...oop's..have to leave in 8 minutes
Just turned my chair around and see about 15 books on the floor
there are 7 more books that I borrowed yesterday in my plastic carry-all
there is an empty software box under the other table. How did that get there? I looked at the box yesterday! I wouldn't just throw it on the floor...maybe I knocked it down
there are a lot of things at the far end of my desk but I can't clearly see them because I am wearing my reading glasses
another checkbook...this is the missing book of checks that I was looking for

gotta run!

Dick was sleeping, so decided to pass the movie. I took Max out for a little walk, went next door to see if they wanted to borrow chairs and a table for their graduation party and spend some time chatting with PG

I can see the mising checkbook, but now I cannot find the other checkbook that I saw when I first started this listing...what a hassle
just turned my chair to the left and see another 10 books on the side cabinet
there is a crossword puzzle magazine on the side shelf
whole bunch of paper on the left side shelves
there is an open phone book (I can't get it back into the phonebook box because there is a stack of stuff in front of where it should go)
my password folder is lying there (about 3 inches thick)
I can't put the password folder back on the cabinets because the area now filled with more software boxes (5+), DVD boxes, and other assorted supplies
I have decided to not look behind me because that would be pointless!

If I upgraded to the pro, I could take some digital shots and insert them here. Maybe, I'll take the shots anyway and insert them after I upgrade this account

Anyway, the point of this post was for me to look at my statement that I had no emotional attachment to the stuff! This still feels true. I do want to use the software and read the books. I am ambivalent about reading the mail, though. I think I started to backlog when I realized the PW was simply not working out. She is not capable of working with a lunatic like me. She cannot keep pace or use her intiative. She wants pretty detailed instructions regarding what to do each time she comes top work. This is not a workable solution for me. I do not want to have to tell PW how to do her job, I just want her to do it. She has been working here for over a year. I think she is not comfortable with the intensive and variety of computer work that I want to do.

Somehow, if I get the office in order, then PW will be able to function again and I may have to keep her.

My god...is this what's going on? I stopped handling things so that the job only got tougher for her? What sabotage. On Monday, I am going to ask her how her job search is going along. Maybe, we should agree to part company begining January. Her hours are significantly cut back. Just 8 hours a week. She has stated that the pressure here is getting to be too much for her to handle. On my part, my actions (or inactions) feel very covert and under-handed. I guess I am still avoiding any confrontation...no matter what other changes might happen to my personality.

Will go take some shots and organize something before I come back here to post!